Thursday, April 28, 2011
i may hav been wif alot of guys bfor u but i nvr loved any guy lik this bfor , i could jus forget them in a few days but for u , i jus cant , i really cant....
2:29 AM
it has been days since we been apart n i m still missin u... i m feelin tired of holdin on to smth tat is not possible anymore but i jus cant let it go , u were once someone important to me n now u still r but is there nth i can do to bring u bac ??? =<
it really jus hurts everytime wen u r not by my side....i m seriously tryin my best to move on but somehow my heart is still wif u...u may not lik me anymore but all i can say is tat i still love u n i feel lik tellin u this but i jus duno how to...mayb it is bcus i m afraid of ur rejection or mayb tat u may hate me ... i noe tat even if we hade broken up we r still frens but i dun jus wan to be frens , i wan to be more then tat...i once was someone u loved but now i m the only one lovin u ... i only knew how really important u r once i lost u ... but now it is jus hopeless....
Labels: how i wish u were mine again..
2:16 AM
Monday, April 25, 2011
seein him everyday does not mak things btr ...it is jus lik rubbin salt onto a bleedin wound.....for u it may b easy to forget me but for me , u r always in my mind lik super glue ...no matter how hard i try to shake it of it off ......
6:39 AM
Sunday, April 24, 2011
hias these few days freankin borin sia , nth to do at home or outside....time jus past so slowly wen i wan it to past faster but wen i wan time to slow down it jus keep goin faster ...i jus dun get it ...i jus hope time could heal this injury of mine , but i m scared i cant tak it until then...now i noe wat ppl mean by wat is not meant to be will nvr be together...hias feelin sick n lonely at the same time , it is jus lik i m stuck at an obstacle course n i cant find a way to get over it ..
1:38 AM
Friday, April 22, 2011
i hav changed so much for u but in the end we still went our seperate ways ...i wish u gave me another chance but u din.....now all i can do is jus tell myself to forget u but i jus does not work....everytime wen i tell u tat i dun love u anymore ..my heart jus felt lik it had been stabbed a few times by a knife...i sometimes really feel lik dyin ....it is jus so painful to see u not by my side ....
12:44 AM
hiies guys , long time nvr wrote on my blog le , quite busy these days ....n alot of things happened durin these times ....n these things r not happy things or lets sa they were happy bfor me n him broke up...we were together on the 18th feb n all things went ok at the beginin, after some time both of us were very happy bein together but these din last long ....on 2 days bfor our one month , we had a big arguement bcus he broke a promise tat he made n tat was not to smoke but bcus he was sad he went to smoke n then i found out by askin my frens ...so bcus of this we din celebrate our one month but things got cleared out a few days ltr n we were bac to bein a lovin couple ...i cant say tat we din argue after tat , we did hav some argues n nearly broke up but then we got bac together again ...mayb u guys feel tat wat i m sayin is jus a joke..cus we r jus breakin n patchin ..but this time the break up was offical...tat day was monday n we had pe on tat day n we were doin some trainin for our five items for nafa n i tried usin reverse psychologicaly to mak him work harder but he got it all wrong , he tot tat i looked down on him n tat i made him felt very depressed ....for tat we argued n to be honest ...if i explained things clearly to him , all these wun happen n we would still be together but i din explain , i was stupid not to ...i couls hav saved this relationship but i din ...till now i still haven told him the reason ...i tot it was not something important anymore since he dun hav feelings for me le ....i still duno y i m still c ryin for him everynite ...so,e ppl say tat he is not worth it but to me he is my everything n he is more thwn worth it ....i m ay always tel other ppl to not giv up the whole forest for one tree but every tree is different n i only love this tree....he was the guy tat i tot was my true love ...i loved him more then any other guy tat i had been wif bfor n nothin can replace him in my heart ....i noe he may not be the sweetest guy or the most carin bf any gal can hav , he may be abit borin sometimes n may treat his frens btr then how he treat u but no matter wat i still loved him....i noe its all to late but i jus cant mak myself forget him ....we may hav jus been together for a short period of 1 month n 3 weeks but those days were the happiest days of my life.....but now without him by my side ...i nvr felt happy again ....i miss him day n nite, thinkin of the days we had been together n wat we hav done together...i see u wherever i go ...i jus cant tak my mind off u ...its jus so hard to put up a smile infront off u ...wen in my heart i noe tat we r over ....
12:07 AM
